Helpless

NOTE: This post may contain some images which readers may find some pictures of animals of animal testing that may be emotive yet need to be seen. Don't worry this isn't a post about trying to make you vegetarian this is just one of the reasons I am.

So I was in the shower yesterday and there was a fly on the wall. Yeah it's completely irrelevant, until, it slipped into the water and was trying to get out. Now anyone who has even seen anything like that knows that the reason they can't fly away is because his wings were now wet and too heavy.

So I saved him, I picked him up and I know it sounds crazy but he looked so helpless not being able to fly away especially since we had been the cause. When his wings dried out I released him outside and he just flew away. I don't think I could ever deliberately kill something that looked so scared.

You probably know that I'm a bit weird when it comes to saving animals, I shoved someone out of the way when they were trying to kill a bee and opened a window for him to leave because that's all he wanted to do. 

I think that's why we get sadistic adults because they were never taught hurting animals was wrong. Some people setting spiders on fire is fun or playing how many ants can you squash but it's not it's just cruel. Do you know why Beagle dogs are chosen for animal testing? It's because they aren't naturally aggressive. Does anyone else see a flaw with that? I mean they put these animals into tests were they might die because they are innocent? Like I said people are screwed up. 

That's why I'm vegetarian and that's why I avoid products that haven been tested on animals.

So anyway that is my convoluted rant on why the human race is screwed up, not because they eat meat, but because of the sadism of youth.

Until next time,

Kris

Dots

From close up the painting just looks like a random collection of dots - like the blurred lights of a city. But take a step back and suddenly everything makes sense, all those random dots form a perfect picture. I never understand drawing with dots but now? Now I think I do - either that or I am being far too philosophical but hey isn't that what life is about? Finding meaning when there is none.

Do you remember those dot by dot books we had when we were younger? The ones you had to link up following the numbers and you could never guess what it was until you were near the end - maybe that's what life is; a dot by dot but without the numbers.

How are we supposed to see the point we are too close to the page. Sometimes, we just need to take a step back and appreciate the beauty. And one day when we are old and grey and we've linked all the dots then maybe... just maybe we will have answered the question that we, the human race, ask all the way through our lives: what's the point?

It's just a short post today but I had a revelation. I thought it only right to share it with you; you know it will have been a year on Thursday since I wrote that first post Butterflies. It feels like a life time though it was just a year and yet I've changed I can remember writing it: where I was sitting, what I was feeling and I don't regret a second of our time together.

Yours looking back,
Kris
PS: Don't you dare stop reading. I love you all!

Back to School

Well it's the rubbish part of the school holidays that adverts just love to rub in. Has anyone ever noticed that we finish school and automatically shops start advertising "Back to School"?

Leave me alone! I don't want a new pencil case! Ooh, but I do want those pens. But yeah I'm back at school on Tuesday, which for most people is their last year in high school. One thing I am looking forward to, however, is finding out my school timetable just so I can moan at it.

But I can guarantee for everyone in Year 11 when you get back to school you will have "The Talk", which will go something like this...

"Welcome back"... "this is possibly the most important year of your lives so far"... "you are the oldest in the school"... "set an example for the others".

We will be all fine and dandy until the fire bell goes off where the conversation will go something like "Year 11... this was a malicious attack"; and I am willing to place bets on that.

Well enjoy your last days of freedom,

Kris

PS: I still don't have one of those God awful ties... oops.

If Life Was A Fairytale

If life was a fairytale? If life was a fairytale I would change a lot of things: a lot of things about me, a lot of things about life, a lot: but it's not and I can't.

Because life isn't a fairytale and I doubt it ever will be.

"Life sucks, then we die"

It is one of the most depressing quotes I have heard, yet its one of the easiest to believe. But would you ever read a book if the character was always happy? Would you watch a film if it was all smiles? Of course you wouldn't, but somehow in some screwed up way - it sorts its self out.

So in this completely, random post which I just wrote and I am determined not to change it at all because I'll lose this feeling if I don't. The feeling that life is truly, at times, screwed up. Everyone's life is; it's a fact of life.

But what's the point of having emotions if you can't express them so thats what I am doing now, in this awfully written post - expressing, with the hope that I will not only help myself but maybe, just maybe somebody else.

"If life isn't about chasing unrealistic dreams: what is it about? Giving up?"

 And that ladies and gentlemen, that is my quote to the world.

Kris

Away with the relatives

Firstly I would just like to say sorry for not posting for the past two weeks - everything's been crazy! I've had work experience and Grease, practically everything imaginable! But I'm practically back to normal now so lets get on with the post.

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For those of you who don't know I happen to be staying in Manchester with my cousin and Josh, who is my second cousin. Long story short - it's been eventful.

We went out for a bike ride yesterday, which is the first one I have been on for absolutely ages, I'd borrowed my uncle's bike. So imagine this:  my cousin, in front, telling their dog to heel, my cousins husband behind me telling Josh (who is almost two years old now) to put his feet back on the bike whilst at the same time they were shouting directions at each other.

It was hilarious but I suppose its one of those had to be there moments. This morning I was woke up by Josh jumping on me and finding it so funny but to be honest it was.

We also went to MotherCare and that is now my new favourite shop - I mean they had  a winking tree lift thing in the middle of their shop! It was amazing I want one in my house when I'm older and if anyone tries to argue with me they're out!

So blog posts are back to normal soon  but me and Gemma will be writing a special set of HowTo guides for in September so if you have any ideas feel free to contact us.

SYS, See you soon.
Kris

PS: I promised I would do this for someone they need to get as many views as they can to win some competition so please just watch the video its only a couple seconds long thank you. I can tell you want to know what it is now. Once again thanks.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XGoNBdpC5ro&feature=youtu.be

Olympic Torch

A pointless event; that was the view of a some and I suppose it is just another flame, I can do it with a match. What makes it so special? Is it that the flame comes from Mount Olympus?

I, however, have a different theory. The torch is special because its about being part of something; the olympics started in Greece 8000BC before restarting in 1894 and for every person standing in the pouring rain to see a flame travel past you know you've just become a part of history.

Quite proud of this photo I had to contend with giants to take it!

Through all the rubbish in the world, the crisis in the Euro zone, global warming, wars and yet millions of people are turning out to see a torch? No, they're coming in millions to see hope. You will be able to see that you saw the torch in person, but one thing did annoy me with the ceremony the carriers were supposed to be inspiration people and I know inspiration people but some of the people just aren't. 

Then afterwards it was the Carnival, now if you don't know this year I'm in the school show and for some unknown reason they managed to get us a float at the carnival and lets just say I know why the Queen doesn't ever wave properly. After two house of waving my hand was about to drop off! It was still amazing with everyone on the float even if we were about to have a breakdown from singing 'We Go Together'!

But just because you didn't carry the torch don't feel like you've never done anything important because what's the point of running with a torch if no one's there?

I'm on my work experience next week so I may not be able to get to a computer but I'll try and write in advance.

See you soon,
Kris

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Also because we feel that not everyone deserved to be awarded was rewarded for their inspirational behaviour A New Perspectives will be running its own competition to find the most inspirational person in our school. So get your top three nominations in soon with a the reason why you think they should; you will remain anonymous if you wish.

Hurry up and give someone the credit they deserve. In order to nominate someone click here and thank you.

I Miss You

Hiya guys my name is Jamie Martin! Before I say anything else I just want so say how happy I am to take part in Kris' blog! (KRIS: Ha! He doesn't realise its the audience who judge's the post not me!) 


Before I tell you what song I have chosen and why you need to know a little bit about me. Basically I'm bisexual and I really like this guy. The song i have chosen is BLINK-182'S I Miss You. The reason I have chosen this song is because the lyrics really fit into the situation I'm in: the guy I like and I have had an argument recently that has made me feel like I don't ever want to see him again; yet that I still care about him like crazy.

To me the chorus of this song indicates mixed emotions towards someone. When the singer sings "don't waste your time on me, you're already a voice inside my head" it's as if he's telling someone that it's too late, they're nothing more to him than a memory. Then he follows with "I miss you...", as if contradicting the previous statement. It's like this person has been hurt so badly by the one he loves that he just wants to them to leave and yet all he can think about is how much he loves them.

This is why I believe that this song is the perfect song to describe my relationships and how people never really get over their previous lovers as they will always have feelings deep down for them.

So I hope that the song means as much as it does to me and you can see my point of view.


Jamie