Being True

“Be yourself; everyone else is already taken.” 

― Oscar Wilde

I have never really wrote around a quote before so this is a first for me. I was in the middle of writing a post that just didn't suit me. I don't know why but it didn't probably because I had never experienced the feelings myself.

So if you don't know who Oscar Wilde is then he is some eccentric poet from 1800's who, in all honestly, was a bit full of himself.  He was, nevertheless, inspirational. I'm not quite sure if that's the right word, but what I am trying to say is that I agree with most of his ideas.

Whilst being sentenced to hard labour on the charges of sodomy (performing homosexual acts is the politest way I can put it because I will not be using certain words on my site because I might just die of embarrassment - and that must have been the longest bracket's ever wrote) he managed to remain witty and true to himself through the entirety of the court case.

When first I was put into prison some people advised me to try and forget who I was. It was ruinous advice. It is only by realising what I am that I have found comfort of any kind. 
-De Profundis

And then there was the the transcendentalism of Ralph Emerson. He believed in the inherent goodness of a person and was often perceived to be the champion of individualism which, sadly, appear to have been forgotten in the modern day. When asked to sum up his beliefs his single doctrine (core belief) was the "infinitude of man"

Or then there was madness personified in Allen Ginsberg, a person who certainly didn't mind what people thought of him and who certainly didn't hold back in what he said to them.

Sure, most of you will think I'm on drugs again and talking some load of utter twaddle but if I was to define my doctrine it would be that I'd rather be hated for being the annoying bundle of loudness and energy which I am then pretend to be something I'm not.

And for that I am extremely sorry to those poor souls that I call friends.

'Till next time,

Kris 

If Life Was A Fairytale

If life was a fairytale? If life was a fairytale I would change a lot of things: a lot of things about me, a lot of things about life, a lot: but it's not and I can't.

Because life isn't a fairytale and I doubt it ever will be.

"Life sucks, then we die"

It is one of the most depressing quotes I have heard, yet its one of the easiest to believe. But would you ever read a book if the character was always happy? Would you watch a film if it was all smiles? Of course you wouldn't, but somehow in some screwed up way - it sorts its self out.

So in this completely, random post which I just wrote and I am determined not to change it at all because I'll lose this feeling if I don't. The feeling that life is truly, at times, screwed up. Everyone's life is; it's a fact of life.

But what's the point of having emotions if you can't express them so thats what I am doing now, in this awfully written post - expressing, with the hope that I will not only help myself but maybe, just maybe somebody else.

"If life isn't about chasing unrealistic dreams: what is it about? Giving up?"

 And that ladies and gentlemen, that is my quote to the world.

Kris

Pain

I don't really know how to write about something as basic as pain, its one of the most complicated emotions yet we always have it. Pain is designed to stop you from doing something stupid, physical pain anyway.

Mental pain is so much worse, mental pain is the hole you feel in your heart when you know you've failed, mental pain is when you feel worthless and alone and this is much, much worse then physical pain and that's why people don't write about it.

And for once I don't really have anything positive to say but what I can say is don't take it out on yourself because enough people will take it out on you already
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Still Caring Kris.

You Belong in a Teenage Love Story

Hi guys! Happy Valentines Day!

I do sort of like Valentines Day not because you get to spend it with someone special because you should do that everyday anyways, but because you can see it. People celebrating it, whilst watching a film, whilst driving in a car. It just lets you focus on what's important.

But since its Month of Music, I tried (and failed) to make a mashup of some love songs and because its also really bad I also made a playlist of some of my favourite love songs so enjoy and even if you don't have somebody to spend Valentines day with this year: you can spend it with meeee.

Love Songs on YouTube

Kris.
PS: Happy Birthday to my friend Abi!